May the Lamb Receive the Reward of His Suffering

I don’t think I have really understood the impact of Christ dying FOR ME until the last few years.   It’s not that I wasn’t taught.    I had plenty of head knowledge about the Easter story…just not heart knowledge.   I’m an out of sight out of mind kind of person.  So feeling the impact of a brutal murder 2000 years ago, although a beautiful story, felt distant.

But through the sharing and witness and spiritual leadership of Pastor Ken Hagler,  I really came to see how God used cancer and death of his wife Heather to bring me greater understanding of His love for me.   It just seems so unfair.   A righteous, loving, beautiful wife and mother taken from this earth much too early, and I grew in faith, knowledge and spiritual awareness because of it.  She did not deserve to die and I certainly did not want her to die in order for me to finally get Jesus’ love for me.   I am truly grateful.   And I do see how “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. – Romans 8:28.  But I don’t see how my being blessed makes up for the world’s loss of such a beautiful person.

And for sure  this Easter 2018 will not be the same as we mourn our loss of beautiful, precious 14 year old Grace Bunke.  I have been so inspired and blessed by the witness of this child and her family through her battle with stupid cancer.

Here is a sampling of my favorite lessons from Vicki Bunke as she shared, taught and inspired us:

Life is too short and God is too real to let it go to waste.

We trade our fears of an uncertain future for the loving assurance of an unchanging God

Hope…. is what dreams are made of – it is what lands people on the moon and cures diseases and ends wars.

We acknowledge the darkness, but choose to stand in The Light.

Focus outward and I see myself in the role that God has intended for me: helping, loving, and serving others. And when you focus on that, one can’t help but be in a good place.

Living radiantly is being able to accept it all, live it all, and in it all find the wonder of being truly, fully alive, with all of life’s sometimes cruel contradictions – yet with the constant thread of God’s goodness running through it all. When you live radiantly, your inner light is able to shine outward serving as a natural antidote to any and all of the darkness in your life.

“If you are filled with light, with no dark corners, then your whole life will be radiant, as though a floodlight were filling you with light.” (Luke 11:36)

When in doubt, look up.

Because today, love and joy and peace, but mostly GRACE won. Death did not. Nor will it ever.

I am not so vain as to think Grace and Heather were put here on earth and suffered death specifically for my benefit, but I do finally see the sacrifice of someone dying on my behalf to demonstrate a RECKLESS LOVE that is meant to change the world.

And now I have been challenged to make it count.

May the Lamb Receive the reward of His suffering means that anyone who comprehends what God has done for them needs to be a sold out, soul on fire to live for Christ.  I am an unlikely candidate.   I am unworthy.    But He is worthy.    I have no idea what I might be called for.   Your servant is listening….speak Lord to my soul.

Let it not be said of me I withheld anything from You, Dear Lord.




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