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My search for relevancy


I’m not quite an old church lady……but I”m working on it.    I have been with the church as a child, youth, young adult, married adult and mother.   I’ve seen different phases of worship, new ways of studying the Bible, times of looking inward, and times when social outreach programs became a central identity of the church.  At times I’ve gotten dizzy with the constant need for change in the church.  But it has allowed me to take joy and hold on to a God who is the same each day and yet continues to speak truth and wisdom and hope with each change in our world.    And truthfully, in this day and age, I cling to a mighty God for His direction and guidance more than ever.


As I look at my upcoming next phase as an empty-nesting- retirement-challenged-Jesus lover, I know I want to be a relevant contributor in a place that praises God in all circumstances, testifies about a gracious Savior that loves every soul, and helps people of all ages live out their calling as God’s child.   I realize my prayer means that I may have to become more aware of my surroundings, and change my thinking and my approach about reaching other people.   It may mean that I have to be flexible in ways that I have become comfortable in order to make a place for a new Christian to grow and flourish.  It may mean that I have to do things differently or step out of my comfort zone.  May I never get so rigid and set in my ways that I deter someone else from encountering God.


I am trusting in God to lead me.  I cling to the old rugged cross, but I take great joy in watching people learn of God’s Amazing Grace for a first or new time.
Your servant is listening, speak Lord to my soul.

I’m with

Father, Father, Father, help us
Send some guidance from above

Cause people got me, got me questioning
(Where’s the love)

2016 and we are still divided because of skin color.   Have we not advanced beyond this YET?  Why not?   Why?   First we need to pray about it.   Thank you BLACK EYED PEAS for using your forum to talk about and pray about it.   Let us pray together…..for unity.

Then we need to learn how to act.   How to act to move forward. says we need to invest.   We need to sympathize and empathize.

#Whereisthe Love, 2016 remake from the Black Eyed Peas

And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate, then you’re bound to get irate
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how hate works and operates
Man, we gotta set it straight
Take control of your mind, just meditate
And let your soul just gravitate to the love
So the whole world celebrate it

Easier said than done…..but just do it.  You gotta start somewhere.

What inspired this remake?


We started remaking “Where Is The Love?” in 2016 right after being bombarded by all the things the media were showing – the wickedness of the world, the conflict in Syria, the Paris terrorist attack, the Brussels bombing, the Turkey violence and the Orlando shooting. Every time I looked up there was severe hate and not enough love, so I wanted to get all of my friends together and re-imagine what we did after 9/11 with “Where Is The Love?”

We just wanted to ask the questions, “Where is the humanity in things? Whatever happened to the fairness and equality?” Instead of spreading love, we’re spreading animosity. What’s wrong with the world?

And if you never know love, then you never know God, wow
(Where’s the love)
Where’s the love y’all? I don’t, I don’t know
Where’s the truth y’all? I don’t know

Lack of understanding leading us away from unity.

Father, Father, Father, help us
Send some guidance from above

Cause people got me, got me questioning
(Where’s the love)


Dear Lord,

Make me an instrument of thy peace.   Show me the way.   Give me courage to ACT.

Let it Brew

How long does transformation take?   If you can see where you want to be, can’t you just keep taking steps forward and eventually get there?   I think so, but sometimes life gets in the way, and we get stopped or sidetracked.   But there is something to staying focused on our goals, and be patient and LISTEN for God.   I’m not so good at that last part….being patient and sometimes I forget to LISTEN too.   That’s shameful really, because I think God is eager to talk with us.  It’s a discipline.

Sometimes God asks us questions.  And when he does, we can rest assured that He already knows the answer.  God questions us as a way to get us to think of things that are important, life-changing, monumental….even if it seems like a very plain question.

God asked Adam, “Where are you?” in Genesis 3:9.   God asks Moses “What is in your hand?” in Exodus 4:2.   Jesus asks “Who do you say that I am?” in Mark 8:29.   These are simple questions that allow us to see and know the Wonder of our God.   In our mundane world I forget that God is awesome and amazing and marvelous…..even in the here and now.   And sometimes God works in tiny, baby steps that we hardly notice, and other times he works in big gigantic fashion.   We just never know.   But each and every day is filled with possibilities.

Psalm 139 (The Message)

1-6 God, investigate my life;
    get all the facts firsthand.
I’m an open book to you;
    even from a distance, you know what I’m thinking.
You know when I leave and when I get back;
    I’m never out of your sight.
You know everything I’m going to say
    before I start the first sentence.
I look behind me and you’re there,
    then up ahead and you’re there, too—
    your reassuring presence, coming and going.
This is too much, too wonderful—
    I can’t take it all in!

7-12 Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit?
    to be out of your sight?
If I climb to the sky, you’re there!
    If I go underground, you’re there!
If I flew on morning’s wings
    to the far western horizon,
You’d find me in a minute—
    you’re already there waiting!
Then I said to myself, “Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
    At night I’m immersed in the light!”
It’s a fact: darkness isn’t dark to you;
    night and day, darkness and light, they’re all the same to you.

13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
    you formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking!
    Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
    I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
    you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
    how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
    all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
    before I’d even lived one day.

17-22 Your thoughts—how rare, how beautiful!
    God, I’ll never comprehend them!
I couldn’t even begin to count them—
    any more than I could count the sand of the sea.
Oh, let me rise in the morning and live always with you!
    And please, God, do away with wickedness for good!
And you murderers—out of here!—
    all the men and women who belittle you, God,
    infatuated with cheap god-imitations.
See how I hate those who hate you, God,
    see how I loathe all this godless arrogance;
I hate it with pure, unadulterated hatred.
    Your enemies are my enemies!

23-24 Investigate my life, O God,
    find out everything about me;
Cross-examine and test me,
    get a clear picture of what I’m about;
See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong—
    then guide me on the road to eternal life.

Work to do


Yesterday I listened to Sunday’s sermon by Pastor Jody Ray.   I was very touched and knew I wanted to remember the points so I made this visual.    I was surprised to discover that one way of getting unstuck is to choose forgiveness.    I have things to forgive that I don’t even know about…or maybe didn’t want to acknowledge as something I could choose to forgive.

My first thoughts of action when I am hurt or angry is to retreat…just walk away…close the door.   I don’t want to work it out, go through more pain or worse yet, choose to forgive.   That’s hard, and it takes a lot more time and energy than just walking away.   But if it’s something worth keeping, then it’s worth working on.    Dang it.   I’ve been stuck in the middle.   I haven’t shut the door, but I haven’t addressed some issues that are keeping me stuck.   Not making changes means nothing changes.    Dysfunction continues or worsens.

Getting unstuck means moving forward.   It may mean choosing to forgive…others or even yourself.   If you are stuck because of shame/regret of something in your past, we must be faithful and accept an incredible gift from God…..he does not remember.

As far as east is from west—
    that’s how far God has removed our sin from us.     Psalm 103:12

I’ve often heard the phrase “Be like Jesus” and although it’s a hard concept, it is something to visualize as we imagine Jesus in the flesh.   But “Practice being God” which says the same thing sounds even harder and impossible.   God is omnipotent….I can’t do that.

I can get myself in a tangled theological mess if I keep at it.   Getting unstuck may mean choosing to forgive.   If God can forgive AND forget our sins, so can we.   I’m not perfect like God and I never will be.   But that doesn’t mean I cannot strive to be like Him.   God uses imperfect, simple things all the time for His purposes.

Forgiveness is hard and beginning to forgive is hard too.   Let’s just keep it simple with “All things are possible with God”  Matthew 19:26

Dear God, help me choose to forgive.   Help me get out of the way and let you shine through me.   I don’t know how to do it.     Lord, have mercy.       Amen.




The Aftershocks

kingIn the midst of a busy time at work, stuff going on with my kids, and financial challenges of budgeting maintenance for older cars, God is tugging at my heart and soul and I feel both the joys and pressures of listening to God.

He continues to work on me through my last post “Knowing Your Why”.    In the past year, I discovered a new worship song that just tugs at me.  The lyrics include Scripture from Joshua 3:5 “Consecrate Yourselves to me, and you will see amazing things.”   This scripture captures me.    When Pastor Jody told us about amazing things happening in the here and now, I was reminded of this scripture.   Our Lord is amazing.   His works are awesome.   This world is full of beauty and wonder.   How can we best tune in to see and know the awesome works of our God?

“Consecration means, “I will set aside the typical and put my spirit on ready to see where God is working around me so that I can join Him.” To cross the uncrossable we must 1) Fix our gaze on Jesus–sensing His movements and follow; and 2) Set ourselves apart from sin unto Him, being on constant alert spiritually for the hand of the Lord around us”

Sermon by Lloyd Stilley,

The spirit is willing but the flesh is week.     This takes discipline.   This takes focus.    Do I have time for this?   How do I not have time for this?

All that I am facing and worrying about in my life will be worked out when it’s worked out.   Give it to God and leave it.    But I’m the one that wants to FIX it.   Am I male?   I think even though I’m the youngest of three girls, I took on some typically male instincts along the way.

I digress, but shouldn’t I be DOING something?

“Idle hands are the devil’s workshop” Proverbs 16:27

Scripture clips can be wonderful inspiration…or dreadfully misinterpreted.    Ultimately, “There is a season for everything……a time for keeping silent, and a time for speaking” (Proverb 3).   Which also means a time for listening and a time of waiting.   How do we know which?     Prayer….and waiting.    Instead of wallowing in worry, we must work the serenity prayer.   We must meditate and surrender.   God’s been trying to tell me this over and over and over.   Am I listening?    Am I ready to surrender?    After getting 2 children to adulthood and a 3rd almost there, I might be seeing that I can let worries slowly destroy me, or let trust allow me to rise above all worldly dangers.

I can let worries slowly destroy me, or let trust  in Him allow me to rise above all worldly dangers.    

This is where the remaining lyrics of that worship song guide me.

We need Your revival
Holy Spirit fire
Burning ever brighter
In our souls
Kings and kingdoms falling
Hear your people calling
King of Kings we need a miracle

God can work a miracle in me by letting me learn how to trust in Him.    Praise the Lord!   Let it be so!    Help me get out of my own way.

The King is among us
And His glory surrounds us
And His fire is falling as we sing
The Savior is for us
And His love is victorious
And revival is rising in His name

Elevation Worship,  “The King is Among Us”, Wake up to the Wonder, 2014

Revival is here.  I’m ready to follow You, dear Lord.   Work in me, O Lord.   Lead me.

Know Your Why

Over this past year I have had a spiritual awakening.    Just a hint that if I reach out in faith, I will encounter and hear from God in amazing and awesome ways.   But first, I’m at the stage of recognizing that I’ve been blocked from growing in faith due to fear, neglect, laziness and wallowing in stress.   I have to accept that it’s me that has been doing the blocking….not God.   So I recognize and ask for forgiveness and I’m ready to move forward.

And today was a great day to get more motivated.  Earlier this month we said goodbye to the Senior Pastor where I work.   He had been here 27 years and this church has experienced amazing growth through those years.    It was bittersweet to say goodbye, but also joyful to see a family walk off into retirement with a whole new world to explore.   Today the staff heard from our new Sr. Pastor, a former Associate Pastor who is returning after being away for 5 years.    He has a great testimony of what happened at his church over those 5 years, and it illustrates how God continues to be a living, loving God in the here and now.

We were challenged to “Know Your Why” as prefaced by this video.  What a great vision to help us move forward personally and professionally.   He encouraged us that since we are all unique, that we me must be who we are in this process.   No pretending, no trying to be super hero, no jealousy over who we want to be….just be ourselves in why we do what we do.

He also hit a chord with me talking about moving forward with not just head knowledge but heart knowledge of our mission.    I have truly felt and understood the concept of heart knowledge with the passing of a dear lady, Heather Hagler.    All she asked is that “God be glorified” in her cancer journey.    Her dear husband has taken that mission full force and shared some of his most profound, yet simple spiritual teachings in the last few months.   His one minute meditations, blog entries, and facebook updates have blessed me immensely.   I feel like he has taken my hand and brought me to a closer walk with God.    But at what cost?    Did his wife have to die for me to open my eyes and learn how to be in continual relationship with God?    Please, dear God, no.   Heather is a dearly loved wife and mother and Christian and teacher and friend.   It is painful to think that someone sacrificed their life for ME.  Oh really?   Have you not learned that someone sacrificed their life for you by now?    Heart knowledge.

Pastor Jody told us that when we know our why, we will witness amazing things in our midst, but we won’t know how….because God works in mysterious ways and we need to give Him all the glory.

Your servant is listening, speak Lord to my soul.


Return to my baptismal home

st. philipWhen I heard we were going to St. Philip for our weekly chapel, I got really excited.   I had wanted to return to St. Philip for a long time, and never made it a priority.   But this day we were headed there to worship and encourage the leaders of this ever transitional community.   I wondered if I would feel something special when I returned.  I wondered if I would remember the building…the place my parents brought me as a newborn and partnered with the community upon my baptism nearly 50 years ago.    I was not disappointed.

The church looks pretty much the same, and upon entering the Sanctuary, the stained glass window draws you in, just like it did many years ago.    I bounced with excitement, knowing that the God of yesterday, today and tomorrow still shines, and still calls us to come and enter His presence.

Corey Shores, Worship Leader/Student Pastor, and the worship team of St. Philip welcomed the Mt. Bethel staff, and led us in an invitation to worship God and lay down our burdens.   Letting down my wall of worry and responsibility is a well known block for me that tries to keep me from encountering God.   It is a wall that I have allowed, and I still struggle at times to open up my soul.   But just like that stained glass window that shines the light of day and the light of Christ, God can use even me to shine His light.   This message was made clear to me again when Pastor Steve Brumbeloe reminded us of the faithful woman who just wanted to touch the garment of Jesus….He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”  Mark 5:34

What amazing freedom, if only we will let our wall down and allow God to shine through us.    I immediately felt called to pray for all people in the St. Philip community who have their walls up.    I pray that they have the courage to come encounter the one Light that shines through Corey and the worship team at St. Philip.   I pray that walls come down and the grace of our Savior will shine upon them.


Watching this video of the announcement of the new POPE, and you can’t help but be excited and filled with Hope.    I’m so glad Father Roderick is podcasting and helping us understand this historical moment.    His enthusiasm is infectious.    

Many Protestants are asking, “why should we care about a new pope…..we don’t worship him!”    Hopefully, no one worships the Pope, but there is still great joy and hopefulness that He will lead the Church (the Roman Catholic church, but also the universal church to some extent) to be more credible, more compassionate, more peaceful.    

There is much uncertainty, more than I have ever felt, in my world….mostly for my country. I must rely on God more than ever that no matter what happens, God is in control.     More than ever, we need to tend to today and not worry about tomorrow.    

So today, we can all take great hope in a new leader to bring about humility in all of us.       

2 Chronicles 7:14

New International Version (NIV)

14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.


Lord, in your mercy……………………..

Hungry for God

I have to wonder if I’m really hungry for God. I hope I am. You would think someone who says they are a Christ follower would actually be hungry for God…. ready and willing to listen for God’s voice and direction in life. But maybe I haven’t been. For a long time I’ve been in survival mode just trying to cope to maintain my role as wife, mother of 3, and employee at a large church. Some days it’s all I can do. Listening for God requires you to be clutter free, ready to listen, and ready to act. I haven’t felt prepared for that for a long time. and Yet my spirit is willing. I’ve been lazy. Listening for God is a discipline… an exercise. It takes work and I haven’t found the time to engage and yet if it’s important to me I will find the time….I will make the time. I have similar excuses for my physical health. I haven’t taken the time to do what I need to do. I feel guilty for not spending more time on housework or more time with my kids. I’m full of excuses. Lord I want to be hungry for you. I want to hear your voice in my life. I want to live according to your will. Work with me right where I am to develop the disciplines I need to hear you. Help me to desire You above anything else. May I live as an instrument of your peace every day. Lord, in your mercy……

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